Enjoy Now

Over the past few weeks I have been making some major adjustments to my life. After some constant evaluation of my life and happiness, I’ve noticed that what I was doing in the past was not cutting it. I just was not enjoying life how I do now. The changes were not an easy thing for me, but over time, I have realized the true appreciation of my changes. Now, you are probably wondering what in the world am I talking about?

-I have let go of counting calories and macros.

-I have taken a step back from making exercise my number one priority.

-I have started going out more with friends and meeting new people.

-I have learned to step back from the text books, stopped stressing, and just breathe.

-I have been taking more time to enjoy now.

For a good portion of my life I shyed away from going out and enjoying life. I let my eating disorders consume me and my shyness overpower and opportunity I was invited to a social event. I would just sit in my room and keep to myself. I can’t even count how many opportunities I missed because I didn’t go outside of my comfort zone.

Spending almost all of my weekends alone resulted in a lot of time for thinking. I would read about people going out to all of these fun events, and yet I was laying in bed. I envied them so much. You’re probably thinking “Well, why didn’t you go with your friends to this event?” To be honest, I didn’t feel like I would belong and that I was not wanted there. I thought it would just be a burden to ask my friends to go with me. Boy, was I a sad little soul.

I’m in the years of my life where I need to go out and try new things. Heck, I need it for my sanity. For so long I stayed within the realms of my comfort zone which was not big, at all. I was the queen of excuses. (My friends can vouch for that.) I decided enough was enough. I was NOT truly happy. After much evaluation, I figured the five points above where what was holding my back. I based my life around obsessing over food, obsessing over exercise, obsessing over negative thoughts (that were not even true to begin with), I was obsessed with trying to be the best, I was living in the past events. 

In order to be happy, you have to uncover the root problem. I have learned some important lessons from these changes. Letting go of the past and living for now was a really hard thing for me to do honestly. Breaking a habit is not an easy thing. Oh trust me, these things did not happen over night. It took a lot of patience, effort, and commitment.


Letting go of the numbers caused anxiety, but I have now found balance. Letting go of hardcore training to recover left me loving the wonders of rest. Going out with people left me feeling awkward and shy at first, but now I am turning into a little social butterfly. Telling myself that my life does not need to revolve around trying to be the best actually helped me not dread doing work. Living in the present has brought me an extraordinary amount of sanity and happiness.

You control how you feel, not anything or anyone else. You are in control of your own life. Do what makes you happy. Life is a precious thing, and we all need to get the most out of it. It may be hard in the beginning, but the ending results are all worth it. I am not the same person I was a year ago – heck, not even six months ago. I am a better person that is happy, sane, and living life to its full potential.

-What makes you happy?

-What positive motto(s) do you love? 

-What makes you happy?

-What do you do in order to “Enjoy Now?”


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8 thoughts on “Enjoy Now

  1. Yes yes yes! Your words are so true! Life is not restriction, guilt, control, and the endless pursuit of “perfection.” It’s about accepting our imperfections and doing what fills our heart with joy! Love this. And I agree with Arman, you are indeed wise beyond your years.

  2. Natalie: I haven’t read all your blog, but this post is beautfiul!! I know every feeling you just described. Never forget that you are stronger than you think, and life keeps moving. Numbers, scales, calories, or calories burned would never define a person. In fact they will never be close enough to the real person. Glad you are letting go of things, that’s the best way to enjoy life to the fullest!

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